How it works for me…..
When I perform a Tarot or Rune reading, the question asked most is, “How does it work?” This is a great question because the more readers I meet the more I realize how different we are. The answer for me is energy.
I am tuning into your energy field, and to an energy exchange with higher energies. I know, it sounds like a bunch of “crap.” If I wasn’t the one experiencing it, I’d agree. It took me a long time to understand it, myself. It’s not like there is a place to talk about this stuff. Hence, this blog.
What I thought was a personal flaw or disorder turned out to be “the gift.” I have a terrible memory. It’s true. My husband is constantly looking for what I have misplaced! Literally, it can be in my hands, and then gone. It really is phenomenal. I can’t count the number of times I left something to burn on the stove top or in the oven? No, I do not suffer from a cognitive disorder. At least not yet. My poor children, when I’d make quesadillas, the first child received a perfect, beautiful and delicious meal. The last child, a burnt, crusty mess. I started splitting each quesadilla, so each child would get a quarter or a third of each quesadilla. So, when the inevitable happened. Everyone had received food and no one felt unloved or forgotten. The worst element of the “forgetting” are people's names. A person tells me their name, almost instantly it is lost. For years, I was so embarrassed.
“How is that a gift?” I know, I hear you?
I started reading Tarot in my teen years. Even after all these years, I cannot tell you the full description of a card without looking it up. It’s true. Despite this memory flaw, Tarot made perfect sense to me and it felt like I knew them. (Yes, them.) So, I continued to master spreads, flows, archetypes, and practiced, practiced, practiced. I held myself back from reading for people I did not know. I didn’t want to be responsible for forgetting something that would be important to that person. Despite accurate readings, I held myself back from reading for strangers.
It wasn’t until I experienced the birth and passing of several spirits that I came to understand that my ability to forget was the psychic gift. When I am tuned into the energy of another; anything not related is lost. Your name is an organizational tool made to make sense of this world. This name is unnecessary in the energy realm. You are already a unique energy blueprint, unlike another.
When I connect to a person, I tune into their energy blueprint. The name of this world; therefore, is lost to me. However, I never forget the energy of their internal being. The language of your guides is not forgotten by me, either. As soon as that connection and re-connection is made, it is like a past phone call, the former reading is restored and the conversation continues.
You are an energy being housed in a physical state. You are supported by a team of higher energies, that I refer to as spirit guides. These guides communicate through the transfer of energy. During a reading, I am connecting to the energy conversation. Anything irrelevant from this energy conservation is completely wiped from my memory bank. When a card is pulled, I only remember what is relevant to you.
When I had the courage to read for strangers, I made an agreement with my guides. First, the person at the table will be ready to receive the message. Second, the messages delivered will support the person on their life path whether it is to heal, grow, remove blockages, move forward, offer conscious choice, or any other message to live their best self. This does not mean messages are always warm and fuzzy. No, some messages are difficult. Growth does not occur in a state of comfort. But rule number one always applies. In exchange, I agree to translate what I receive even if it makes me uncomfortable. I speak what comes, even when the thought does not make sense, is strange or seems outlandish. This agreement is the foundation of my readings. (Yes, you have the right to set the rules of your energy engagement. This will be a topic of a future blog).
Now that I have shared my gift of forgetting (Psychic gifts manifest in unexpected ways, don’t dismiss what you're experiencing, instead seek to understand it.) and the energy agreement. This is how readings manifest for me, when a card or rune is before me, I remember only the part of the message that is relevant to the person before me. The rest is forgotten. Often, I pick up an emotion with a level of intensity. In addition, random words, or thoughts will cross through my mind. I then start to explain the message through these emotions, words and thoughts. As the message is translated more continues to come and it transforms into a unique transcription. In fact, sometimes, the message is so far from the original scope of the cards “booklet description,” that personally, I am like ....“What???? This is not the description, how’d I get here?” But, if I hear a word, or have a thought, I will say it. I trust it must mean something to the person before me. I let it flow. It is stepping out of the ego of the self, letting the energy take center stage and completely trusting it is REAL.
To be honest, there are times when the cards and runes are laid down and I (the ego) have a moment of panic. I have no idea what it all means. Seriously, I am like, “WTF!? What the hell?” In these moments, I take a deep breath, have to let the self go, completely lean into the energy. These are often my best readings. I am always surprised when it’s over. If the person before me could only hear the “ego conversation” in my head, “Where did that come from? Wow, I totally see it now.” When the person before me shares their story and how the message relates. I am even more blown away. “How did I do that? How is that possible? You can’t make that s*#@ up.”
There have been times, when I have thought, “the reading has got to be wrong, maybe I am picking up on someone else’s energy. I will have to apologize for wasting this person's time.” This is because, everything I am saying appears to be a complete contradiction to the visual image sitting before me. The person may have no effect and no reaction to anything coming out of my mouth. But I continue because I honor my agreement with my guides. I trust them completely. There must be a reason for all of it, maybe, there is something here that I need to learn. When the reading comes to an end, the person gushes with truths I could never have imagined. It was all accurate. Spot on. I am dumbfounded.
This is the hardest part: Trust. Trust what is happening is REAL. Trusting yourself. Trust the energy is there. Let your ego go and allow yourself to fall into the energy net. TRUST!
Guess what? The truth is energy is the answer to all of it. Intuition, psychic abilities, dream work, astrology, spells, crystals, etc. Name it, energy is the secret ingredient. Energy is in everything. It’s learning how you tune into energy. Consciously, choosing when and how to engage with the energy. Trusting that you can and are expected to participate in the energy exchange. Then allow yourself to be part of the energy without fear preventing it from thriving.